…page 78. I have read snippets of this book and started to recognize that I had been acting out some of it. I then forgot about it and happened onto the film Death In Love I did see.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Avia, Put Wings on Your Feet…
…you see what my feet do.
My Uncle used to walk with a limp, one of his legs was shorter than the other. If I recall it was his right leg that was longest.
Friday, January 11, 2013
I personally know a woman who gulped down bottles of Nyquil for cold relief…
Carefully worded statements they now call memes are used throughout television advertising to program our minds to buy and try a product like the once frequently heard, “good to the last drop”, or “things go better with coca-cola”, which enters the viewer’s subconscious mind while viewing your favorite Sunday evening program. While this ad applied to a coffee product, it can refer to any product sold by television including alcohol, cough medicine, sugar laden juices, soft drinks, natural fruit juices and milk.
…and developed into a serious addiction. I used it on occasion and when I checked the ingredients it contained 35% alcohol by volume. That’s pretty high for a small bottle of less than 16 ounces.
I drew circles around several of my drawings, one my sister has in her possession…
…one was the island, the other a scene of two mountains in the distances with a road going between them…not until now did I even think the mountains and road could have been a knife wound…
I encountered a woman in prison who had been cut from her navel up to her breast.
It is possible someone in this prison may have felt he or she was on an island and wanted to get into a boat and just sail away…there is a song with those lyrics in Styx I think and Chris Cross did Sailing.
I certainly am not trying to pass myself off as holy…
I have been looking for explanations for my behavior which to my surprise has been more than just a rebellious nature toward my parents or anger at those who injured me.
I have been drinking a lot of milk, more than I normally do…
Józef Milik - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…maybe someone was reading this man’s work…
Petersburg, VA had a reformatory near Richmond…
…my Aunt and Uncle lived near Petersburg.
Charles Manson was in Petersburg reformatory.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
I am guessing a good bit of the anxiety and similar symptoms some people experience…
Kay's History II: I’ve been wearing PJ’s similar to these…
…could be the result of someone having had shock treatments, dehydration and/or starvation.
I know that when my carbohydrate levels are lower I hear voices more frequently.
Merryland - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Merryland - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Venus in the Cloister or The Nun in her Smock…
Smocks were slightly popular in school, but I didn’t know why…Daughters of Wisdom operated the hospital in which I was born, of course they were not physically the original nuns…
Kay's History II
Falla, William 1851 Guernsey, Channel Islands – Guernsey is familiar – Fallon Florists…
“Killing two birds with one stone…”
Several years later it was revealed that when the gallows trapdoor opened and Thompson fell, the sudden impact of the noose caused her to suffer a massive haemorrhage. The large amount of blood spilled, combined with the fact that Thompson had gained weight during her imprisonment even while resisting food, led to conjecture that she had been pregnant.
Edith Thompson and Frederick Bywaters - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Was her husband the incarnation of James Bird from Dartmoor.
More likely this Hammond beating the guard…
The city is named for Peter Hammond (1797–1870)—possibly anglicized from Peter av Hammerdal (Peter of Hammerdal)—a Swedish immigrant who first settled the area around 1818. Peter, a sailor, had been briefly imprisoned by the British at Dartmoor Prison during the Napoleonic Wars; he broke jail, made his way back to the sea, and later left his ship in New Orleans, where he used his savings to buy then-inexpensive land northwest of Lake Pontchartrain. There he started a plantation to grow trees, which he made into masts, charcoal, and other products for the maritime industry in New Orleans. He transported the goods first to the head of navigation on the Natalbany River at Springfield, Louisiana.
“I have to Studdy…”?
Studdy, Albert 1841 Exeter, Devon
I’ll have to think on what’s going on here, I think it’s a crime novel.
James Maxwell was from Clerkenwell I bet ~ James Clerk Maxwell…
Maxwell, James 1836 Ireland
Dartmoor Convict Prison, 1891 Index of Prisoners
I did a poor re-creation of his plaster rendering of a thermodynamic surface in 3d design class at ECU.
Maxwell might have been a sculptor
My Uncle was Maxwell Valentine Golden Harris (harassing?)
MAXWELL ~ MARVEL COMICS – GEORGE FORT’S ILLUSTRATOR?
This is the bastard that beat me up…
Hammond, Samuel 1863 Nottingham, Nottinghamshire
Dartmoor Convict Prison, 1891 Index of Prisoners
IT WAS A NURSE THAT WAS BEATEN UP…
I am not altogether sure the Ripper came from any connection to American history…
Kay's History II: I recognize Macclesfield…
…my personal history says differently.
I recognize Macclesfield…
Dartmoor Convict Prison, 1891 Index of Prisoners
Bird, John William 1852 Jersey, Channel Islands - I went to New Jersey…
Hyde, Joseph 1817 Macclesfield, Cheshire
Parker, George 1824 Macclesfield, Cheshire
Moss, Edwin 1839 Macclesfield, Cheshire
Nash, Francis 1851 Bristol, Somerset
Murphy, John 1857 St Lukes, London
Murphy, John 1863 Eastham, Essex
Nicholls, Thomas Ward 1840 Olney, Buckinghamshire – Olney’s Lesion…?
Malin, Charles 1827 Broadway, Worcestershire
Marriott, Edward 1851 London, Middlesex
Bogg, Moses 1845 Boston, Lincolnshire – I have been looking for Bogg shoes
Campbell, James 1835 St Georges, Middlesex
Campbell, James 1860 Glasgow; Lanark, Scotland – I lived with Cambell
Campbell, John 1861 Glasgow; Lanark, Scotland
Campbell, William 1840 Dundee, Scotland
Cooper, George 1855 Norfolk
Cooper, William 1839 Bristol, Somerset – I lived next door to Cooper for three months
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I must have been mixed up with prisoners and was a guard according to my history or vice versa. I did enjoy viewing cop shows so must have been a bobby or guard. It is likely my cousin Bobby Cahoon, how he came about his name. Now he builds jails.
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Cullum, John 1839 N - Copycat film- GOOD JOB!
Falla, William 1851 Guernsey, Channel Islands – Guernsey is familiar – Fallon Florists…
Hall, Frank 1854 Manchester, Lancashire – some psychic blindness? Manchester figures into it since the 1980’s.
Thomas, George 1856 London, Middlesex – George Thomas Davis is a lawyer…
Holmes, Alfred 1867 Coveney, Warwickshire
Holmes, William 1843 Liverpool, Lancashire - lived across the hall from this one - Oneil, Philip 1852 Wrexham, Denbighshire, Wales
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Payne, William 1841 Birmingham, Warwickshire - there is a David Paine (Payne) in my family, must be the Jew assuming that name…Christianna Sewell’s 3rd husband
Payne, William 1845 Southwark, Surrey
I ate butterworth syrup…
Butter, Joseph 1816 Manchester, Lancashire
Butterworth, William 1859 Rochdale, Lancashire
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Something I just learned…updated
…my brain is entrained to recollect and associate traumatic events because of my own traumas. Unfortunately it is not good for my health. I have a propensity for recollecting images but rarely definitions of words. Blake’s wife?
See image #259…
High Royds Asylum, Menston | Whatevers Left | UK Urbex
…Frederico Montefeltro painting – Blue Shell – looks like Steinem’s little dining alcove…I came about this picture after drawing several pictures of shells one of them being blue. It seem to fit other things I had come across while drawing.
I hesitate to mention this but I’m going to anyway…
Several years ago while doing what I have been doing, finding content in my mind online, I discovered a building created many centuries before Radcliffe Camera but similar in design. I associated it to the shape of the head and found other architectural renderings to exemplify similar qualities. In the film about High Royds, I discovered the archways were not all alike some appearing to have less of an arch than others. This is identified as a source of the problem with mental illness which I have personally experienced. Whenever someone with a smaller or particularly a flatter head than my own, is enmeshed with me, I experience more voices or rather more of the psychic content of my mind and theirs. It is quite troubling and painful but is helpful if it can be tolerated.
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
I have experienced this myself…updated
When Steinem was three years old, her mother Ruth, then aged 34, had a "nervous breakdown" that left her an invalid, trapped in delusional fantasies that occasionally turned violent. She changed "from an energetic, fun-loving, book-loving" woman into "someone who was afraid to be alone, who could not hang on to reality long enough to hold a job, and who could rarely concentrate enough to read a book."[5] Ruth spent long periods in and out of sanatoriums for the mentally disabled. Steinem was only ten years old when her parents finally separated in 1944. Her father went to California to find work, while she and her mother continued to live together in
…I see it as the brain and human mind’s limitations, an incapacity to continue to repress painful life experiences. I suffered anxiety, panic attacks and agoraphobia prior to my nervous breakdown. Most of my personality problems were rooted in experiences that were never known to my parents and which I did not understand because I was so young. As my behavior continued my peers grew more distant and I felt isolated and then sought to be with people who were more like me. This included people who used alcohol and drugs and were basically abusive to themselves. I was being swept in a direction I did not want my life to go and I was helpless for a long period of time to turn it around.
Most recently I discovered some of my inability to focus on a task, my paranoia and other similar experiences were coming from people who were writing novels claiming to be helping me. They were distorting my reality or failing to manage the fearful content from films I may have viewed. I have documented many comments and dialogue from these individuals talking to me in an attempt to collect a story, etc.
There may be an art to writing but I must tell you there is an even finer art to screwing with someone else’s mind. I found Carl Jung to be helpful and I also read a good bit of My Mother Myself.
I need to explain to you all about my brain…
…it does not work like those of the type who process info on one side and store it on the other. Trying to dissociate my right brain is useless. Information is stored in stereo.
Because there isn’t enough money to properly care for them and most often the immediate staff are incompetent to treat them…
…many of the staff aren’t even mentally well themselves. To them it is just a job. They fail to realize it is about a mind and spirit they are dealing with, not just a brain. In this case of High Royds and Wakefield and even the prison and hospitals where I have been, it is the staff which should be discharged. It isn’t unknown that the Doctors and staff become as sick as the people they are trying to help. I can empathize with those staff who mean well and end up taking abuses not meant for them.
This is exactly what I have been experiencing, a shaking inside my whole body…
Kay's History II: I’ve been wearing PJ’s similar to these…
…as if I were the one getting the shock treatments.
I feel like I’ve been at this hospital or the London Asylum…
…these two places are just so familiar to me…I feel my first psychiatric hospitalization is certainly a piece of someone’s history at one of this hospital’s. I remember walking down the hall and staring at the psychiatrist who was passing by me on the other side of the hall as if he had done something to me, going to harm me. I feel as if I have walked up and down one of those halls going round and round the whole place. I thought this started for me in 1976 at the London Inn but I think it started at my father’s hospitalization.
I’ve been using steam in my apartment for the past three years…
I’ve been wearing PJ’s similar to these…
…Warning Will Robinson – his movements look like the robot in Lost in Space…it was claimed my father received shock treatments while in Cherry Psychiatric Hospital in 1967.
I think this was part of what was going on when I took the philosophy and psychology courses in 1990…
The Sophists taught aretē (Greek: ἀρετή, quality, excellence) as the highest value, and the determinant of one's actions in life. The Sophists taught artistic quality in oratory (motivation via speech) as a manner of demonstrating one's aretē. Oratory was taught as an art form, used to please and to influence other people via excellent speech; nonetheless, the Sophists taught the pupil to seek aretē in all endeavours, not solely in oratory.[citation needed]
I think this person was learning oratory. I did view the film with Montgomery Clift and this may be the origins of it and may be the real cause of the accident I had.
Monday, January 7, 2013
After reviewing this film a second time, it was interesting to discover…
…that Rand and Wallace were really talking about basically the same thing. She used different terminology to describe what we already have, only it’s tweaked a bit more loosely than her philosophy.
What I found more interesting than listening to her was what I heard Wallace saying about welfare, Social Security, taxes and all the other social aspects of economics in America. Those with the money believe in this only because it keeps them in power and the flow of money going in their direction while the majority wait for their handouts. This is not what Rand’s philosophy is about.
I don’t think she understood the majority of Russians were ignored as even existing and permitted to starve to death until the Bolshevik Revolution, that they were “special people” and others should be objective and sacrifice themselves. It all sounds like the Little Ice Age to me but I am no historian, then again Iaptiev ~ ypatiah ~ hypatia.
After reviewing this film a second time, it was interesting to discover…
…that Rand and Wallace were really talking about basically the same thing. She used different terminology to describe what we already have, only it’s tweaked a bit more loosely than her philosophy.
What I found more interesting than listening to her was what I heard Wallace saying about welfare, Social Security, taxes and all the other social aspects of economics in America. Those with the money believe in this only because it keeps them in power and the flow of money going in their direction while the majority wait for their handouts. This is not what Rand’s philosophy is about.
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The queen of the Olympian deities. She is a daughter of Cronus and Rhea, and wife and sister of Zeus. Hera was mainly worshipped as a goddess of marriage and birth. It is said that each year Hera's virginity returns by bathing in the well Canathus. The children of Hera and Zeus are the smith-god Hephaestus, the goddess of youth Hebe, and the god of war Ares. According to some sources, however, her children were conceived without the help of a man, either by slapping her hand on the ground or by eating lettuce: thus they were born, not out of love but out of lust and hatred.
Hierax ~ Ajax ~ jaxa ~ java…
Hierxa ~ I Herxa ~ herva ~ Herve’~ the plane, the plane
I Ervah ~ naked in Hebrew – no X ~ erah ~ hera ~ Herod
Hypatia ~ ypatiah ~ ipatiev house
the X is a symbol of the cubicles for the scrolls
My sister did buy the Aja album by Steely Dan, I purchased it several years ago.
Hiram Sadler is the name with which I am familiar…
Kay's History II: Hiram Rhodes Revels - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
I am certain he is of Egyptian origin…
Not necessarily, traumatic re-enactments can be passed on…
so much of ancient history, literature and learning was lost forever.
Incoming…
“What are you running for?”
I was in the Old Reliable road race in 1986.
Rizzoli and Isles have it working out…damned good work going on in that show.
This sounds like The Daughters of Wisdom…
Alexandria had long been known for it's violent and volatile politics. Christians, Jews and Pagans all lived together in the city. One ancient writer claimed that there was no people who loved a fight more than those of Alexandria. Immediately after the death of Hierax a group of Jews who had helped instigate his killing lured more Christians into the street at night by proclaiming that the Church was on fire. When the Christians rushed out the largely Jewish mob slew many of them. After this there was mass havoc as Christians retaliated against both the Jews and the Pagans - one of which was Hypatia. The story varies slightly depending upon who tells it but she was taken by the Christians, dragged through the streets and murdered.
…it doesn’t make sense that Hypatia was dragged through the streets by the Christians since they were the ones the Jews were after.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
I think someone used it to masturbate women as a cure for their hysteria…
Around this time I purchased the film Dreamcatcher based on a Stephen King novel I had not read. In this film one will discover one of the characters employs a circular motion with his finger similar to that used by the devices in Time Tunnel and Woman in Green. In Dreamcatcher, Dudditz uses this gesture and transfers it to one of the members of the group of boys in the film, to use for the good of the world.
Incoming…
…”now listen here Youngblood…”
I’ve never seen it. I am mixed up with a lot of people since returning from the holiday. I saw the film The Mighty Ducks.
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