We got lifted by a lot of musicians in Engelhard in the late 60s’ and into the 70’s. Some were from Greenville, NC, some from Morehead City.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
His arms could have been over the cross and nailed from behind…updated
Kay's History II: The crucifixion…re-enactment of Cain and Abel…
…I did view a History Channel or Discovery Channel episode about how Jesus was crucified. That was long after the sketches…
Railroad ties ~ Gage…
Kay's History II: The crucifixion…re-enactment of Cain and Abel…
His hands were the light…
A cat has nine lives ~ an act with nine characters or nine scenes ~ nine plays to eradicate an act…
Caesar was murdered by nine assassins?
I certainly identify with this Plath quote…
I saw the days of the year stretching ahead like a series of bright, white boxes, and separating one box from another was sleep, like a black shade. Only for me, the long perspective of shades that set off one box from the next had suddenly snapped up, and I could see day after day after day glaring ahead of me like a white, broad, infinitely desolate avenue.
I think this is from the prison – Dartmoor or Holloway or even the London Asylum…I think maybe certain species go for periods without sleep and then rest for long periods like bears.
My sister and Sylvia Plath ~ Sunoko – Ancient Asian or Greek – someone walking on his back…updated
…in some of her pics I also see Emily Dickinson…
Sunoko ~ U Koons ~ Colquhoun…
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Friday, January 25, 2013
incoming…
“It’s my livelihood”…
Re: Running out of work. Look, 1,000,000 films per day times 365 days per year x 65 years = 23,725,000,000 films, you will hardly ever run out of work. This does not include novels or music. The world would likely stop spinning first.
Incoming…
...”I must apologize I thought you were trying to get out of something”.
This is odd since you make your living by cleaning up these things after they’ve been viewed. You know what it does.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
What happened…
I was with my mother and we were going somewhere and we were having an argument and I jerked the wheel of the car back and forth. There was another incident in which I jerked the wheel of the car into oncoming traffic…
I attributed the second incident to a film…
The back and forth motion is indicative of part of the white rail fence I found in Iran…
When I first found this it looked like you had to zig zag through it rather than walking straight through it. I was elevated by the four Iranians in 1975…I was not looking at films at this time though.
Correction definitely Oklahoma…
Kay's History II: Oklahoma! (1955) - IMDb
…there is a huge log scene in this film somewhere…
"Perry Mason" The Case of the Silent Partner (TV episode 1957) - IMDb
"Perry Mason" The Case of the Silent Partner (TV episode 1957) - IMDb
I will hold off on these but I did recognize this one immediately…
About the history…
Believe me we already know about a good deal of the poor eating habits that went on…
we ate pork brains, chitlins, pigs feet, organs of chickens, cows etc…pickled eggs, penrose sausages, pork sausages, turtle, all kinds of seafood…
Shampoo is in it too ~ working at the hair salon I worked there for 2.5 years as a receptionist and supply clerk…
…that’s a military position…ship’s something…
There was a cartoon character by this name…
Manfred, King of Sicily - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…may have set off some of these problems…jumping and falling off ships…pirates…ECU Pirates…
Viennese ~ Sienese – I purchased a recording of the Viennese Waltz…
The Sienese Ghibellines inflicted a noteworthy defeat on Florentine Guelphs at the battle of Montaperti (1260).
This man’s jumping off a boat into water…
Twilight Zone Full Episode (Perchance to Dream) - IMDb
…it seems like the jumping scene could also be a man jumping off the ship into the water after the war, maybe at Waikiki Beach, the Philippines, Long Beach, Florida. The drumming is indicative of the Hawaiian Islands.
This might be a prob too! The hypnotic wheel is putting people on automatic pilot and they cannot police their behavior.
Someone’s libido was tangled up with this film…
Twilight Zone Full Episode (Perchance to Dream) - IMDb
…I experienced sexual arousal when I wanted to jump off the parking deck. it just occurred to me it might be a stunt man.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Infantilism…
I never equated birth pain with this song or the reason one would not want to become an adult. Becoming an adult does not necessarily mean one has to have children.
In other words re-enacting a trauma or problem keeps one from mental maturity, infantile. It’s like being stuck in the mud and the wheels of your car keep spinning, you keep hitting the gas but the car won’t budge. You can’t possibly move the car until you get out and examine the situation (examine your past), and in this case put something under the wheel mired in the mud (rut), hoping to move the car out and then be on your way.
Phoebe Snow does a song called, Never Letting Go” but at the same time she did a song called Harpos Blues, “I hate to be a grown up and bear my life in pain…”. This might indicate a young adolescent or child who has lived through the child birth of her siblings along with her mother, fearing the pain and agony from witnessing that birth.
Corporate capitalist oppression…?
In this way, Fromm argues, freedom can actually create submission and the destruction of individuality.
BookRags. Escape from Freedom by Erich Fromm | Summary & Study Guide (Kindle Locations 61-62). . Kindle Edition.
I disagree. This is likely a capitalist view in support of oppressing individuality. Only a weak oppressed individual will fear breaking the ties of home to seek his or her own way. The history of the settling of America is proof of this. The pilgrims who came here were certainly hardly fearful. They broke ties with their native country and came here not knowing what they would be facing. Land of the free, home of the brave.
And there was a male nurse at Pitt Memorial who suffered nystagmus…
Neurologic
At therapeutic doses, phenytoin may produce horizontal gaze nystagmus. At toxic doses, patients experience sedation, cerebellar ataxia, and ophthalmoparesis, as well as seizures. Idiosyncratic side-effects of phenytoin, as with other anticonvulsants, include rash and severe allergic reactions.
I was administered Dilantin in prison in 1998…
Dilantin made an appearance in the 1962 novel One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey, both as an anticonvulsant and as a mechanism to control inmate behavior.
Phenytoin - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…after getting out I moved to Chapel Hill and rented the film. I never rented it but did view it on cable TV. I am sure my mother’s second husband viewed it as he was a Nicholson fan but it is likely someone in Chapel Hill viewed the film.
What this means is, often those who were promoting and encouraging socialism might really be capitalists…
Kay's History II: This is how my face was shaped when I was born…its Unamuno on top…updated
…this would have been derived from Unamuno’s ideas about basically the desire to obscure consciousness of the masses. By creating a society of people believing in socialism, they also created the consumers and therefore capitalized on their work through publications. It is clear to me there was some revolution against the writing community somewhere around this time or either they have cleverly prepared for it by producing these fraudulent pieces of history and books. As in Through the Glass Darkly, I can certainly clearly see how writing for one’s daughter would save her life from a demise that may be unknown, however the consumption of that story would only re-create the problem in one’s self or one’s family. As I mentioned acting out is a kind of cure, once material is acted on it is over.
There clearly was some consciousness raising history in the Great Library at Alexandria someone desired destroyed. I’m not a scholar but I am guessing it had something to do with Aristotle and his ideas about the mind being outside the self and other physiological aspects of human existence.
I came up with a scenario about Aaron making Moses believe his staff was a snake when in reality he made him believe it was a staff and Moses picked up a snake which bit him and ended his life. This means Moses could not have written the 10 Commandments unless they were penned prior to this incident. I have been hearing constantly, “my brother was bitten by a snake”…
I was boosted by my neighbors while playing one afternoon…
Kay's History II: If I did have this man then it would explain my migraine headaches in 4th grade…
…that’s when I started having the migraines and would be around the time I set the fire in the vacant lot…must be a connection to Avilov, yes. I myself may have suffered a stroke as a result of taking paregoric during my childhood.
If I did have this man then it would explain my migraine headaches in 4th grade…
In late 1921 Lenin's health deteriorated, he was absent from Moscow for even longer periods, and eventually had three strokes between 26 May 1922 and 10 March 1923, which caused paralysis, loss of speech and finally death on 21 January 1924. With Lenin increasingly sidelined throughout 1922, Stalin (elevated to the newly created position of the Central Committee General Secretary[33] earlier in the year), Zinoviev and Lev Kamenev[34] formed a troika (triumvirate) to ensure that Trotsky, publicly the number-two man in the country and Lenin's heir presumptive, would not succeed Lenin.
This is how my face was shaped when I was born…its Unamuno on top…updated
File:LeTrotskyDB.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
I told you I thought the black baboon may have been enmeshed with the mandrillus…this man looks like a gibbon to me.
Management in my complex embezzled money in 1997-98…
Gramsci was born in Ales, on the island of Sardinia, the fourth of seven sons of Francesco Gramsci (1860–1937), a low-level official from Gaeta, and his wife, Giuseppina Marcias (1861–1932). Gramsci's father was of Arbëreshë descent,[1] while his mother belonged to a local landowning family. The senior Gramsci's financial difficulties and troubles with the police forced the family to move about through several villages in Sardinia until they finally settled in Ghilarza.
I was imprisoned with a woman who embezzled money…
In 1898 Francesco was convicted of embezzlement and imprisoned, reducing his family to destitution. The young Antonio had to abandon schooling and work at various casual jobs until his father's release in 1904. The boy suffered from health problems: a malformation of the spine owing to a childhood accident left him hunch-backed and underdeveloped[citation needed]. He was also plagued by various internal disorders throughout his life.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
After my hospitalization I recorded that I suffered a severe pain in the middle of my back possibly related…
Kay's History II: This seems to be the attitude I have been possessed of, pg XXI…important updates…
…to Carrie or the Albanian women mentioned in Patterns of Psychosexual Infantilism, how poignant…
I sketched the picture of the horse about 2004 plus or minus one year…
This seems to be the attitude I have been possessed of, pg XXI…important updates…
Further Selections from the Prison Notebooks - Antonio Gramsci - Google Books
…but I am suspicious of the authenticity of the translation. Reverse psychology is not unheard of…
Tyrell did try to hypnotize me with this circular motion indicative of the hypnotic wheel. While we were driving to the beach he placed his finger on the gear shift of the steering wheel and proceeded to make the circular motion with his finger.
I was completely oblivious to the effects of this action on my brain and mind at the time, now I see what he was trying to do. It triggered the hypnotic suggestion and this is how I came to end up in prison.
I invited him for a fish dinner and repeated the scene again in Washington, NC with someone else.
One of the pills I was given in the hospital was green and white.
George Tyrell renovated an old hotel in Hyde County, NC
Further Selections from the Prison Notebooks - Antonio Gramsci - Google Books
…he owned a plumbing business…
pg XXVI
Anita Weston is acknowledged on page VII.
This is one, I’ve been picking up on a heartbeat like sound…NS
“I’m going to hell”. I found thoughts of it…I’ve been buying mirrors…
This one definitely, I was taking photos of the flowers in the Community garden here…
I have not seen this before. Good job!
This sounds familiar…
In our family, card playing was how you learned to count. My grandfather’s favorite game was setback. The men who stopped off at his store often stayed for cards or checkers. The handmade checkerboard sat on a 10-penny nail keg; the checkers were Nehi Orange or NuGrape bottle caps.
chapelhillnews.com | Grandfather s justice
…we used to play setback in the storage room at the Wild Goose Inn in Fairfield, NC. Morgan Harris taught us how to play cards in PE class, Hearts was one of the games. I know of a Lynn Harris.
Others…Seen but not recently
China Moon
Magdalene Sisters
Blink
Final Analysis
Fatal Attraction
Rain Man
Mr. Jones
Scorned
Point of No Return
Single White Female
Suspect
Mermaids
Primal Scream
Three of Hearts
When Time Ran Out
Winter’s End
Monday, January 21, 2013
The prison and the noise from this complex I live in…
Kay's History II: I rest my case…updated
…with 80 inside AC units running in the summertime 24/7 for 5 months. I see legal action written on the wall too!
I am having a problem with acid reflux…
I noticed most of the fats we eat are acidifying. Breast milk I am sure is more alkaline. This likely contributes to poor brain development.
I remember Janet and I were hanging out the 3rd story window of the Old Rectory smoking a camel cigarette…
Kay's History II: Related to Perchance to Dream ~ Fritty and Ernest Louis…
…I know it was related.
There were no problems with wanting to jump out the window but I did jump off the top of my car after taking the PCP.
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Selling our information is a violation of the law and our rights…
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…then they want me to pay them for listing my info they have stolen.
And need I say more…?
22 Churchview, Ashton on Lynde, Hyde England
Candle holder at Virginia Gail, University Mall Chapel Hill, NC USA
I rest my case…updated
I don’t recall if I was taking anything but I do recollect her tripping on the stage, someone must have thought she was intoxicated…some form of intoxication would have caused the delayed processing of these images…I found the video after I created these images…
This is the impulse I am talking about. I kept making them and making them and I couldn’t put my finger on what was going on because I had been heavily medicated in prison in 1991 with Mellaril, Doxepin and Buspar. I suppose I picked this image because it most resembles her on the stage and apparently she made a similar gesture in some skit in the Sonny and Cher Show I also watched.
I did view some of the Sonny and Cher show on TV Land before going to Fountain Correctional Institute for Women where I was taking Depakote then Dilantin. This clearly indicates why I began having sleep difficulties because not only was I recollecting things I had seen on TV but I was recalling that horrendously disturbing noise from the cement factory next to the prison. Orienting reflex. Must have been operated by the FBI :I.
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