Saturday, August 11, 2012

This sounds like a man who wishes not see the destruction he may have created…

Peter Kelley, was well known as an alcoholic and eccentric, nicknamed by those who knew him "Kelley the Crack" (crack as in "crackpot"). In later years Kelley would become the source of many local rumors concerning his supposed insanity, the most popular of which being that his madness finally drove him to sew his own eyelids closed while working as a tailor. As with all rumors and legends, the story's authenticity is dubious, but it accurately reflects the prevailing opinion of Peter Kelley as an extremely unbalanced person.

Jane Toppan - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I wasn’t aware of this and was given this drug while a freshman in college…

Other medicinal uses for datura included stimulating abortions, providing relief from sore throat or toothache, and getting rid of parasites.[20]

Datura stramonium - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I got dressed threw on my hat and ran over to the Harris Teeter…

…where I purchased a bottle of corn syrup and two bottles of seltzer water.  I then went to Kangeroo where I purchased a bag of chips and a coke.  I know only one person in the area who is addicted to coke and I haven’t seen him in many months.

Tropane alkaloid ~ Jane Toppan…

Tropane alkaloid - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I had some field salad some of which looked like this last night…

Datura stramonium - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…at about 9:30PM.  I also had two 1/2 inch cubes of yellow cheese.  I took a melatonin and 2 mg Chlorpheniramine maleate.  I rarely eat field greens.

I did see a bat hanging from a tree in the mind.

The posts on the two links below are an example of what Cayce described below…

When out of the trance he entered to perform a reading, Cayce said he generally did not remember what he had said during the reading. The unconscious mind, according to Cayce, has access to information which the conscious mind does not — a common assumption about hypnosis in Cayce's time. After Gladys Davis became Cayce's secretary on September 10, 1923, all readings were preserved and his wife Gertrude Evans Cayce generally conducted (guided) the readings.

Edgar Cayce - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

http://kayfgibbsstayingalive.blogspot.com/2012/08/i-was-hung-up-on-grounds-early-this.html

http://kayfgibbsstayingalive.blogspot.com/2012/08/the-tinkling-symbol-asey-mayo-cape-cod.html

Edgar Cayce (The Sleeping Prophet) ~ Edgar Jones…

While at Susan’s we went to a Self Realization Fellowship meeting in Virginia.  We went by the ARA fellowship building which evolved from Edgar Cayce’s work.

Edgar Cayce ~ Casey Jones ~ Edgar Gibbs?

…sleeping or hypnotized?

Honora Kelley ~ Honore’ de Balzac…updated

Jane Toppan - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…Leonora Piper ~ Twilight Zone…

I think likely Piper was consuming something which enabled her clairvoyance, especially with the Doctor.  Cheese was a major source of food during her time.  Tryptamine converts to serotonin and melatonin.  I have used all of them including tryptophan.  Cheese seems to exert a powerful calming affect on the brain and melatonin has certainly contributed to my ability to experience clairvoyant episodes.  

I think what is happening is the chemical inhibits the processing of information but still permits body functions to go on…that’s why the melatonin inhibited the seizure like activity from the excessive music I heard one day but it was taken internally not sublingually so it still is acting like an tryptamine in the brain.

This Kelley ~ Priscilla?

Jane Toppan - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Jane Tennison?

This is why I threw the scissors at Alexandra in 1977…update 3

attempted to castrate the nineteen-year-old with a pair of scissors

What's In Kay's Mind 2

I was in my child state - I was the one castrated – that’s why I made the penis out of clay, trying to out [sic] - put it back on…not penis envy…

So someone did dissociate it ~ the Yoders, the Schoolcrafts…Stanley Staples, the boys in the neighborhood?

This house in New York is where it happened…

Poplar place Sands Point, NY like our house

Kay was a house painter in 1981 after being laid-off from Corning in Raleigh…

Throughout 1898 he worked as a house painter. He said he continued molesting children, mostly young boys under the age of six. He later recounted an incident in which a male lover took him to a waxworks museum, where Fish was fascinated by a bisection of a penis. After that he became obsessed with castration. At the age of forty-one, during his stay in St. Louis, Albert Fish began a relationship with a mentally retarded man named Kedden. Fish attempted to castrate the nineteen-year-old with a pair of scissors after tying him up, but the agonized look on the man's face frightened Fish and he fled the city after binding the wound and leaving him a $10 bill. Fish then increased the frequency of his visits to brothels, where he engaged in sadomasochism.[11] In 1903, he was arrested for grand larceny and was sentenced to incarceration in Sing Sing.

Albert Fish - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…and I viewed a vasectomy on PBS in 1987

The castrati – my kidnap and rape came from this history -

Kedden ~ Redden I am thinking, Joe Redden…

The waves in this picture look like fish scales…Fish ~ Dolphin ~ Bonnie Prince Charlie ~ Dauphin of France ~ Marquis De Sade…?

“That’ll do it”…

Clearly some historian was documenting this history as I have been hearing it, causing reckless endangerment…

The Tinkling Symbol (Asey Mayo Cape Cod Mystery, Bk 7)

R Moore not Blanche but I did she a film about her

C upstairs where Moore lived

What's In Kay's Mind 2

The window…

Window Lincoln's Mall Schenectady, NY Opening in wall to kitchen

Near the end of or just after the new addition was constructed…the image below was taken in 2000.

Kay's apartment 2

Incoming…

“We have nine lives, mustn’t multiply”…

At the moment of death the person must have been overcome with some great fear…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I’ve been experiencing this – Reid was the judge in one of my court cases in Greenville…updated

…which caused me to run from one place to another trying to escape whatever killed me.  I have been re-enacting the moment of death over and over, leaving one place after another.  It wasn’t until I encountered Ms. Staples and Dorothy that my paranoia began to ease as they told me the Ripper was dead.

I’ve been experiencing this – Reid was the judge in one of my court cases in Greenville…updated

Guillain–Barré syndrome - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…this could be what I was experiencing in 1976 at the London Inn – one of HH Holmes victims?

A soul that was near death I was connected to in a grave somewhere or one of my family.

My mother’s connection…

In 1985, Moore also accused an unknown "pervert" of starting two fires that damaged her mobile home.

Blanche Taylor Moore - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Albert Fish – Alexander Hamilton…

Hamilton Fish

Albert Fish - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Likely he actually had fathered children – Fish ~ Dolphin…? updated

he boasted that he "had children in every state,"[4]

Albert Fish - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He may be connected to HH. Holmes…

Katherine Gibbs aka Kay Francis or some other burlesque member…?

He was an alcoholic, who later forced her into prostitution to pay

Blanche Taylor Moore - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I met Helen Kiser in 1983…

She was born Blanche Kiser

Blanche Taylor Moore - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Blanche Taylor Moore…

Moore looks like my neighbor upstairs in the C-building a bit, they are from Front Royal, VA.  Dr. John Hall administered arsenic to Shakespeare and his family during the plague.  Was it murder?  My mother’s husband’s first wife poisoned her husband then later died of cancer.  He survived.  Likely Shakespeare’s wife administered it to him as well as the Doctor.  It was said we (Gibbses) lived near Shakespeare but I think it was the Halls and that some of his plays were a reflection of some of their history.  Hand washing would be indicative of a doctor preparing for some surgery.

She does look like Harold Schector too which means she could be one of the HH Holmes victims.  

What's In Kay's Mind 2

This is likely why I was riding my bicycle around the grave yard…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I was hung up on the grounds early this morning with some rabbits and bats…update 4

I was hung up on the grounds early this morning with some rabbits and bats…update 4

When I finally got to lay down at around 4:30 AM and drifted off to sleep, I tossed and turned and suddenly found myself in the grassy area beside the dumpster.  It was a freaky few hours as I seemed to make my way back and forth through the grass from one side of the dumpster to the other, then going all the way over to the pond and back.  I couldn’t tell if a snake was in the process of devouring  one of the bunnies or not, it seemed that way.  I have encountered their little body parts strewn around the path where I once walked.  I no longer walk that way.  Suddenly two owls struck up their duet, bellowing like they were going to crash into my window.  That kept me awake a few hours.  I had forgotten I passed three little bunnies frolicking in the grass about a week before this while on my way to the laundry room. 

After sometime I found myself in several of the apartments in the F building, then I flopped over to the E building where I recalled an acquaintance Harold, who was an elderly ex Navy veteran who had become alcoholic.  From there I found my way to building C upstairs where Moore lived and then drifted off to sleep.  This must be why I thought I was a bat or someone thought they were a bat, they were mixed up with them somewhere.

A few days later I was on my way to the laundry again and encountered four bats flitting around the street lamp and trees on the property.  They kept swooping down at me.  I made my way to the laundry room and loaded my clothes for washing.   I grabbed a stick on my way back and swung it round my head like a lasso, trying to keep them from getting into my hair.  I had always heard bats would get tangled in the hair which scared me so I have always been frightened of them.  One night one grazed my arm ever so slightly on my way back from the laundry room.  It felt eerie but I noticed their bodies seemed soft.  I worried more after that because of the possibility of some infection. 

Moore looks like my neighbor upstairs in the C-building a bit, they are from Front Royal, VA.  Dr. John Hall administered arsenic to Shakespeare and his family during the plague.  Was it murder?  My mother’s husband’s first wife poisoned her husband then later died of cancer.  He survived.  Likely Shakespeare’s wife administered it to him as well as the Doctor.  It was said we (Gibbses) lived near Shakespeare but I think it was the Halls and that some of his plays were a reflection of some of their history.  Hand washing would be indicative of a doctor preparing for some surgery.

She does look like Harold Schector too which means she could be one of the HH Holmes victims.  

Incoming…

“That’s why I’m here, to prevent consciousness”. 

Interesting you need that purpose to be here.  How’s your soul today?  Oh yes that’s right slaves don’t have souls.

This is what fearful women lost to men during Jung's time…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: The Tinkling Symbol Asey Mayo Cape Cod Mystery Bk 7, Phoebe Atwood Taylor. (Hardcover 9997529669)

…women’s intuition – synchronicity…

Ok, now its up to the film makers and actors and me…

Topical Murder and Dated Death: Magdalena Yoder

Topical Murder and Dated Death: Magdalena Yoder

Topical Murder and Dated Death: The Case of the Murdered Muckraker, by Carola Dunn

Topical Murder and Dated Death: The Case of the Murdered Muckraker, by Carola Dunn

Susan crawled into the closet - 1989…updated

Topical Murder and Dated Death: A Nun in the Closet, by Dorothy Gilman

Becker Street, Schenectady, NY

Harry Potter Novel – “stupify that one…”

Topical Murder and Dated Death: The Peanut Butter Murders, by Corinne Holt Sawyer (1993)

Topical Murder and Dated Death: The Peanut Butter Murders, by Corinne Holt Sawyer (1993)

Here is how I found it…

Kay Francis on Cape Cod - Google Search

Some of these were probably in the series McCloud…

Police Sgt. McCloud

The Adventures of Leonidas Witherall - Old Time Radio Shows - OTR

A very young Katherine Gibbs…

Topical Murder and Dated Death: Octagon House, by Phoebe Atwood Taylor (1937)

Topical Murder and Dated Death: Octagon House, by Phoebe Atwood Taylor (1937)

I met a Taylor who worked at Bank of America…

Phoebe Atwood Taylor - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I think now I developed Bulimia because of the Great Depression…

This may have been confused with HH Holmes…?

Murder at the New York World's Fair - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I roomed with a young Social Worker named Margie…

The Cut Direct - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Leonidas Lewis…

Leonidas Witherall

The Left Leg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The Crimson Patch - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The Crimson Patch - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

horse

Connexxions ~ Ex con ions ~ ghosts of ex-cons…updated

connexxions

What's In Kay's Mind 2

I have acted out 5 of them, three barbiturate overdoses, a jumping episode, overdosing on alcohol, wrist cutting, Carbon monoxide poisoning, and overeating…

The Tinkling Symbol Asey Mayo Cape Cod Mystery Bk 7, Phoebe Atwood Taylor. (Hardcover 9997529669)

The Tinkling Symbol Asey Mayo Cape Cod Mystery Bk 7, Phoebe Atwood Taylor. (Hardcover 9997529669)

I think this has been coming together, I went to Harris Teeter last week and ordered a ham sandwich with mayo, I hadn’t eaten mayo in a while on a sandwich.  I then a few days later went to Whole Foods and noticed the wind chimes, there wasn’t any wind but I could here them in my mind.  I also looked at the moon rising around the 1st of August, it looked like a Harvest Moon but wasn’t full.  I recalled Harvest Moon the song I purchased a year ago.   Then of course I discovered the connexxions and it all has just been culminating and I just kept searching until it came up…

As much as I disdain advertising, this internet is invaluable to our safety. 

Twister film is one of them, I also blogged about the Trixie Belden Mysteries…I couldn’t figure it out because I was acting it out instead of walking through these things like I have been lately.

The Tinkling Symbol (Asey Mayo Cape Cod Mystery, Bk 7)Opening in wall to kitchen

The Belvedere I purchased, a hotel, 1985…

Belvedere, Sugar Hill, NY

I think this is the gas station…150th Street, Sugar Hill, NY…

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Friday, August 10, 2012

This is nearly like our house in Virginia except for the port hole, the upper deck and dormers and chimney…updated

We had a carport on the left a square flower bed in the front with two trees from one trunk.  We added a chain link fence around the yard, there was a shop in the back and a tree on the right over the fence…there was no sidewalk and there was empty lots to the right…

Now I see why they destroyed evidence of Plummer Plantation…

These are the people who read Joseph Murphy, Power of the Subconscious Mind which caused my father’s nose bleed, or maybe the people across the street or next door.

Polar Place Sand's Point NY

I at one time wanted to start collecting the glass bricks for a window like the one in my apartment…updated

…we are twins…

23 Poplar Place Sands Point, NY

This is where Susan was living…

640 Schenectady, NY

This is the Harold on Becker Street in Schenectady, NY…

I think King William is upstairs…

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Something interesting…

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The structure on the background here is likely a gas station or ATM maybe or something like it…

Copy of index print 2 1976

This little man who looks like a Jewish Mexican…

…has been driving from the mall to Shepherd’s Lane nearly everyday.  He seems to go and come about the time I leave for the mall and come back from the mall. 

I know I have been enmeshed with him and this evening I know I had a clear connection with him as he passed me on his way to Shepherd’s Lane.  As I found myself in the driver’s seat I heard “these people are dangerous to us”.  He had trailed fumes from burning oil or faulty exhaust from the mall to Shepherd’s Lane.  I know those fumes are toxic and dangerous and I had deliberately stopped going to the mall at specific hours so as to avoid him. 

I found a connection to someone at the Durham, VA, who had disturbed me one day when I had a visit there.  He was crossing the street but he was holding his head down as he passed me.  I have felt uncomfortable going there since that time and have declined appointments.

The “Doctor” looked a little like Cher in this picture.  His hair, of course was short and he was dressed in a white coat and looked like a Doctor.

There has been this constant barrage of dialogue about “getting a novel”, “let me get this novel”, etc.

Copy of Cher_001[1]

I did read some about Gestalt in the 90’s and past 10 years…

I suppose some cleaner said something about these hypnotic suggestions which set me on a course to find out how it worked which led me to NLP.

I read this in the 80’s I don’t think I read all of it…

Amazon.com: Against Our Will: Men, Women, and Rape (9780449908204): Susan Brownmiller: Books

I was reading this in 1987…

Amazon.com: Toxic Parents: Overcoming Their Hurtful Legacy and Reclaiming Your Life (9780553381405): Susan Forward, Craig Buck: Books

I recognize some of these titles…

Cult Next Door

…someone’s read some of these books.  I have read Susan Forward but not about cults.

This was into the 1977 mix…

Hypnosis for the Seriously Curious - Kenneth S. Bowers - Google Books

…The Little Rascals, Elephant Man, Anatomy of Human Destructiveness, Perly’s (Fritz Perl?) history in Massachusetts…

Noel Gay Television [gb]

Noel Gay Television [gb]

Peeping tom ~ little rascals episode and “gay” I think is a Stanwyck or Mae West film…

We also had a peeping tom around our apartment and I had been approached by a gay roommate.

Neurolinguistic Programming

…”You are awfully gay this evening”…

I am seeing it some kid standing on some boxes looking in a window.  I recall having seen some of those, my cousin Bob looked at them more than we did.

Yes I was playing Chessmaster via a CD…

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Someone is using lidocaine for their ears, musician I am sure…

After all that this is what we are left with…

Middleton Post Office grandma addie's house

This is like my mind right now…

…I have connections all over the place, unfortunately…:(

kayfrancis map

848 St. David’s Lane looks like Alex’s home in Ellicott City…

Of course this looks familiar – someone from Raleigh, made a bundle on a few books and moved to New York?

Interesting they ramsacked the South during the Civil War, ramsacked our banks after the Civil War, crapped us up with the damned television, hypnotized us and they came back to finish the job writing books still robbing us and now they want to shove the lottery in our faces.  

We didn’t enslave anyone we got boosted out of our lives and robbed.

Lincoln's Mall Schenectady, NY Opening in wall to kitchen

I think this is where my photo below is located…

…there are several houses with tall narrow light posts but this one seems to fit my images.  It must have been Halloween.   There was a pumpkin on display recently at the mall and I thought it was rather early for it.   Seems someone knocked the pumpkins off – a raid on some busts somewhere…?

My Manhattan location was off…

Schenectady, NY 833 David's lane 

Copy of index print 2 1976 pitt compilation

This is the house where I thought there had been a murder…

…I recognize this house, I found one in Massachusetts but this one rings truer in appearance…

I have been to the house across the street too, I recall that front porch and the way it’s made…I think the bus driver from Raleigh had a New Yorker too, he said he was from New York, he was in pretty dire straights driving the CAT bus with two children and a wife…

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Vrooman Avenue ~ Five O…

St. David’s Lane ~ Adirondack Research Library…

…why it is sometimes important to avoid correcting the written word…here is the barn, the dormers, the paned windows…

Copy of Davis Library Adirondack Library Schenectady, NY

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I think there was some myth about some people being like Newts and growing new limbs etc…

….as in Aliens, at least we have been deceived by our brains, so we are told, to believe that.   We are none immune to injury from the unknown.

I would surmise it was Alfred…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I’ve just been hit in the head with the golf club…pre – hypnotic suggestions and lucid dreaming induction…

…I was going to say it was Louise because she has been associated with Elvira who was thought to be mentally ill.  There is an Alfred in Hyde County who stayed close to home most of his life.

My head injury was associated with the myth about Chet and Thomas story…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I’ve just been hit in the head with the golf club…pre – hypnotic suggestions and lucid dreaming induction…

…the myth being the two got into a fight and killed each other and each year at the same time two balls of fire arise and clash with each other.  No need for us or anyone else to suffer that again.

I’ve just been hit in the head with the golf club…pre – hypnotic suggestions and lucid dreaming induction…

…yes I am still seeing someone swinging a golf club…1987.

I don’t see anyone being hit, but I see the golf club being swung from right to left and around back toward the right shoulder.  When I was grazed by the club, I was sitting down behind the kid swinging the golf club.  When he drew back he slightly hit me in the forehead.  No one was injured.

I think this is the reverse of the way it really was…12 Church Street, Everett, MA I think…updated

…I think there was an arched window on the outside and an arched doorway on the outside, a square window in the inside and a square door on the inside.  I think it might be a bank or a church counselor’s office.

eagle bank everett MA

Door Inside kay's apartment  my octagon window

Kay's outside window

Walking in front of the brick wall ~ Ms. Perly at a future date – afraid of being shot like King…?

… or the result of the Civil War – I noticed this in the Edward VII image today…

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Katherine wrote on her diary she thought she had been in jail or prison…

brother and cousin

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Ticker tape and chess board…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Ticker tape and chess board…

I created this chessboard January 11, 2011.  I found this video August 2, 2012.  I heard capers but I was thinking about the food condiment capers, which I don’t like.

   feng shui chess game

What I think happened…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Becker and 119 N. Elm Schenectady, NY is where the Lilith film was viewed…

…I think there was a marriage and honeymoon, they may have gone to Coney Island, my father did mention Coney Island when he was on Long Island, or they went somewhere near the water.  Just an hour ago I could smell the ocean or sound, I couldn’t tell if it was some of my relations in Hyde or New York or Georgia.  I heard someone say, “smell that air”…

I think one of the couple must have seen Woman in the Dunes, which may have been a connection to Nags Head, NC and the moving sand.  They got married and had a child.  The child was thought to be mentally ill and was taken to a psychiatric hospital where they discovered the entity which possessed their son, a female.  The boy became an actor working in the theater and found himself attracted to other males.  He had relationships but most of them failed and he became suicidal, jumping from a window, we now think is related to Ernest Louis and his brother Fritty and Frederick Hohenstaufen’s falcon.

This is where my father was connected we had a Maple tree just like this one…this is 113 N. Elm…updated

…I lived at 113 E. Whitaker Mill in Raleigh, NC then made my way to 200 N. Elm street…

The pic of me with the bike is in front of our home in Hyde, NC.

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Another piece of the Asylum puzzle…

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Becker and 119 N. Elm Schenectady, NY is where the Lilith film was viewed…

$4 billion a year?

…that’s just 500,000 people.  This 150 million people, that’s $1,200,000,000,000 PER YEAR.

WHERE IS THE DAMNED MONEY?

“How long has this been going on”…

(*&(^%&^()*)_)*(^&%$%##$#@#!$&*^*&)*)(+)+)_*(&^%$#$#&(&)*_*)&^%$#*+)(+$#$(*&)(_)+_

Indeed, I have copies of all of my posts put into MS Word form…

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

This could be the derivation of my Cleoptra with snakes drawing…

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There was a Rochelle who taught in Hyde County, NC…

http://www.venere.com/inter-hotels/la-rochelle/hotel-saint-jean-acre/

??????????

Acre, Israel - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Acre, Israel - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Jean Acker ~ St Jean d'Acre (1853)…

HMS St Jean d'Acre (1853) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Kay Gibbs has no interest in Queen Victoria’s baggage either now take it off…

…I believe I told you that as well.

Kay has no interest in other people’s problems…

…she is trying to work out her own.  I told you this before.

I feel an awful pressure on my kidneys…

I keep hearing this one too, have not seen it…

Decent People Trailer - IMDb

I wanted to see this but I never did, likely someone has…

Insidious Trailer - IMDb

…I purchased a ticking clock mp3.

The Outer Limits Full Episode (The Other Side) - IMDb

The Outer Limits Full Episode (The Other Side) - IMDb

Incoming…

“I hate this fucking girl”????????????????????

This is the film I was mixed up in, in 1989 while on the Pitt Memorial Psychiatric Unit…definitely have not seen it…updated

Lilith (1964) – IMDb

…until tonight.

http://www.amazon.com/Zen-Garden--Tranquil-Waters-Relaxation/dp/B008OFTBKI/ref=sr_1_9?s=instant-video&ie=UTF8&qid=1344401457&sr=1-9&keywords=Zen+Garden

I am still acting out parts of this film and have several videos with waterfalls in them.   I played ping pong in the hospital with several people, and there are various other things which I have acted out with other people, never came onto a child like that at all.  I am not sure who viewed this film, maybe someone in the hospital.  I doubt this was shown on television in our area.

It looks like The Exorcist came from this film and it seems like it might be Jean Acker.  In one scene you see her running off with Nazimova.   Vincent killed two people and was clearly the mentally ill person, Lilith his caretaker.    It is hard to tell until the end of the film he is the real patient but I caught on everything was going in reverse, like in Suspect. 

I definitely heard Mrs. Young’s voice amidst the many.

I can’t help but think Barbara Payton’s or Jean Wallace’s stories are part of this drama going on.  Lilith seems like she is quoting some play or piece of poetry throughout the film.   It seems she leans toward being a child molester or simply out of control sexually. 

I can’t help but think this is connected to my memories I have connected to Nielson Avenue in Everett, MA and a molestation I thought was by the young men in my neighborhood upon me as a child but as I see now it might have been upon a male child by his mother or father.  I discovered this film only recently, long after having located the house in Massachusetts.  This may be related to the beating death of a woman. 

No child of mine is going to give birth to the soul of a Jew – Sharon Tate.

The female character could be one of Holmes’ victims or some doctor, death by masturbation I don’t know.  Clearly one of Holmes’ creations is the locked door to the basement of the London Asylum to me and then the gas chamber in Millbank Prison.

Some of my mother’s history seems to be in it and I am guessing it could also be some German during the holocaust.

This all sounds like the thinking going on in an attempt to sort it out.

I see someone mooched this idea from me…

Amazon.com: Zen Garden - Desktop Size 10 X 4 Inches: Furniture & Decor

…my Zen Garden was really a candle garden and I turned it into a Zen Garden which happened to be in several images I put online.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Incoming…

He grabs her by the collar (a life size doll) and shoves her onto the sofa. 

“Now get over there and sit down while I get this novel”.

I was thinking my body felt like dead weight and I wondered if they had used some similar subliminal message…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: I think this must have been someone drinking something while listening to that Doctor in Twenty-Two…updated

I have been unable to collect in detail.   It could be sentiments said to Merrick about his arm or this own thoughts, I don’t know.

I think this must have been someone drinking something while listening to that Doctor in Twenty-Two…updated

I was drinking a Dr. Snap

What's In Kay's Mind 2

…I think the dialogue hypnotized my mother and then the woman getting out of bed and walking to the elevator in the film disarmed my mother’s motor activity so she felt sleepy and was unable to walk.

She may have seen this at about the time these other things were going on in her head and I acted them out in 1974, enlisting in the Army.  I don’t know if Katherine Gibbs was keeping a diary about this or not, but likely she was keeping one before she became too ill.

Of course my taking the pill would be Holmes taking the pill given to him by the Woman in Green and then walking on the ledge, etc.  I did fall yesterday morning after hearing someone say “drop dead”.  I tripped over my shoes at the exact time I heard it and fell to my knees.  I had heard that too before this, going to Rose’s where I discovered it on the shelf for killing Roaches, Ants and Spiders.

I did go to Ellicott City in 1974 in the white mustang…

What's In Kay's Mind 2: Ellicott City, MD and Alston, England have a connection or did and they probably know that…

11:30 PM woke up from a deep sleep…update 4

…just like in the Army, I was rendered unconscious for 2 hours.  I had a vision just before awakening.  I saw two women walking by my apartment door.  Then I heard someone who sounded like Sam Elliot.  I think he is the Salvation Army preacher.   I saw  a man walk passed my door in the opposite direction.  The two women were dressed in bustles and dresses with short coats, it seemed like it was cold.  One had a black hat and white handkerchief.  They weren’t upper class but didn’t seem poor.  The man was dressed in a black coat, black pants and black hat. He turned his head and covered his face with the hat so as not to be seen…

I started feeling very hot and so started to wake up.

I had been overexcited by music from the past two days blasting at the K&W and The Harris Teeter.   My thoughts had been racing all last night and into this afternoon.  I must have been exhausted when I got drowsy.

I went to the market and purchased some melatonin, which I took there under the tongue.  I did it to protect my frontal lobes from the music.  It wasn’t so bad today.  It started to ramp up as I left.  I have been told this is satellite music via Sirius.  I have noticed both at Harris Teeter, The Mall and Whole Foods, they escalate the volume and intensity of the music about an hour before closing time.  It is horrendous.  I think Rose’s is satellite also.   They were doing the same thing Sunday when I dashed in to make a few purchases. 

I am quite angered by this as they are using music to herd people out of these places.  It is ridiculous and unnecessary.  A simple announcement would suffice.  If I recall, this was being done by Best Buy also.  What happens when they do this is the customer will then dissociate this racket onto someone else who then won’t be able to sleep.

I took a melatonin at 6:45 PM at Whole Foods.  Before falling asleep I heard HM talking about someone killing people or something.  I then said I would kill their people.  She then said don’t do it and I saw someone turning a dial on some console like in the film I had just seen. 

I heard Jack Lemmon talking about working his ass off for these people, I deserve an Oscar.  He said, let me show you the console…keep that in mind..  He told me something about the airport too.  That’s when I realized much of his quick thinking came from someone in the airline business or some pilot.  That’s when I discovered there was an Air force base near Hollywood. 

When I got home, I heard Helen carrying on her shananigans. I started laughing.  I heard Elizabeth talking and she was worried about Edward.  She was in bed and tried to get up but someone was there to usher her back to bed.  I was drinking a Dr. Snap and had dinner of a bowl of barley soup with ham and a croissant.  I recall the last barley soup I had looked like dirty water.  Sorry mother you know I don’t cook.  I had been thinking about the PCP I took in 1974 and that I needed it to quiet my brain last night.  I took about 15 mgs of melatonin to get my brain quieted down.  Then I thought about the video I had that might help me get to sleep.  I got up and went to the bathroom and painted my ears with solarcaine which contains .5% lidocaine because they were throbbing like crazy.  I started to look at it but then decided it wasn’t a good idea and viewed the Zen Garden, Rock, Stream Water video.   Then I found the video and looked at a couple of images.    Then suddenly I had this feeling inside my brain like there was a band across the top of my head.  I felt listless and could barely lift my arms.  I was overcome with sleepiness.  I just had to lie down and sat down on the sofa thinking I would just close my eyes for about 30 minutes.  Just before waking I had the visions.  When I awoke two hours had passed.  

Before leaving Whole Foods I had paid particular attention to getting separated from drivers on the highway with my little system I devised which has been working well for me.  I recall hearing Cher as I got into Camelot.  She was pulling money out of her handbag and we were talking about Tahoe.  It was raining and my grocery bag was falling apart too.  My head was still pretty ramped up at that time.  I hadn’t gotten to sleep before 6:15 AM yesterday morning.  I woke up at 2:00 PM.  I had my oatmeal and coffee and did a little surfing around and then left for the store.  I did stop by The Mall for a few minutes before getting on to the store.  I wanted a chocolate but decided against it as I have been putting on a bit of weight and the lads don’t like it.  Well I must be gettin’ on to bed now Dear Diary.  Til tomorrow.

Note:   My left foot has been bothering me for several weeks now.  It feels awfully tender and sore when I put my weight on it, I don’t know what is wrong.  I seem to want to drag my right foot because I can’t put much weight on my left.   I seem to have developed these moles on my neck since wearing the silver necklace he bought me.  Don’t know what the matter is.  Haven’t the money to see the doctor now.  More later Dear Diary.