Saturday, May 25, 2013

I just had an aha, Durer’s mother’s name is Marta I believe…

Kay's History II: I believe Albrecht Durer (his mother) is enmeshed with the young woman on the left…

…there is a Marta Jane Gibbs.  If James Gibbs had Durer, then Marta might be his mother’s real name.   She must be mixed up with Jane Gray or Jane Dormer, must be Dormer.  Harriet Beecher Stowe must have had it.

Merrick was mixed up with Durer, “she had the face of an angel”…

http://lmaclean.ca/LisaMacLean/nfblog/2007/01/28/

Swollen lymph node…

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Wednesday, May 22, 2013

She just came in the door…

…one lit on my Lady in Green coat on UNC Campus several years ago…

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Here is the caricature…

http://kaysart18.blogspot.com/#!/2013/01/caricature.html

I believe Albrecht Durer (his mother) is enmeshed with the young woman on the left…

…and she looks like Gloria Steinem up top.  This is from the 1982 publication of American Showcase of Photography.

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This is Albrect Durer’s signature on the 68th ADA…

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Incoming

“Nicole’s going to get out of it.”

Holding up your cue cards, Helen?

CIA ~ Pacman?

PACMAN

Woman of the Dunes ~ Dune ~ Nune ~ Nunney…

Wapping ~ pawping…

Lake Wobegon ~ gone pom ~ gone palm ~ gone to California…

Sadlers meeting the Ochs in Nunney…?

Popeye is about the Sadlers, Ella Sadler Gibbs was mother to Hugh Gibbs, meeting the Ochs?

Kay's History II

…I have read the Gibbses did live near the Shakespeares and Sadlers were close friends to Shakespeare…

Meets lea ~ meets ale…

…many of the Sadlers did have drinking problems in Hyde.  This must have been pre-prohibition.  TV then came onto the scene and well need more be said…

Pomieock ~ pomieoch – could be - updating

me chop oi?

me hop c oi?

Ochie…

W oochie b ~ w b oochie – i wobe och ~ pomieoch ~ pomieock ~ chimp oeo eoo ooe ~ chippawa?  a as p and w as m…

My brother says “we be alright a lot”.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eastern_Pomo_language

How did the Pomo’s get to California when they were native to the East Coast of the US.  I think someone has it backwards.  I am sure they didn’t migrate to the West. 

Bowie – Och

Och bowie knife?

Wea o ochi ~ p as an a – Wea o uchi ~ pomieuch or pumieoch…

Sweet pea – meets Wea – meets Lea?  p as an a and l.

Popeye is about the Ochs meeting the Native American Indians maybe…My Uncle Hugh had only one eye, so I’m not sure how that fits into it…

Popeye is about the Sadlers, Ella Sadler Gibbs was mother to Hugh Gibbs, meeting the Ochs?

There was a psychic connection to the East Coast Indians in the country, survivors may have migrated from the west after a volcanic eruption depicted in Durer’s Pond and later photographed by Ansel Adams.  Having no formal education they may were unable to discern what was being transmitted to them across the ocean and so the words they did create were likely all mixed up and altered by the brain.

Star Wars reminded me of Rupert and Paul Pugh, close friend of mine in Hyde County, they have sisters, two or three I believe, they were older so I wasn’t around them much. 

Durer’s Pond and Lyell Fork by Ansel Adams

James Gibbs had Albrecht Durer.  I was in Durer’s things but wasn’t aware of it until I took a photography class in college and made the connection decades later from my images.  I didn’t know about Edward Weston either, why I was interested in photographing people more than other things as I was instructed to do my Kelly Adams the instructor.   I was looking through some of Durer’s paintings online and found the Broken Wing, a bird’s wing that had been severed which I had previously connected to Leonardo, before finding the Durer image.  I then decided to look at some of Adam’s photography as I was beginning to take photographs again, having just purchased a new film SLR camera.  I was studying his technique for producing his black and whites, I soon learned was too complicated for me so I gave up on it.  I went back to Durer and Weston’s work and that is when I made the connection between these two images.  One thing has led to another.  After viewing a Nat Geo or Discovery Channel episode on the Shroud of Turin I immediately recognized it as being Albrecht Durer.   I then considered the draping images I took of my brother might have been a re-enactment of the original events when James took his brother from the tomb.   James may not have been alone when he removed his brother from the tomb and these could have been visions by others passed on and never cleaned up or acted out because it may have been sacrilege or something of that kind.  Scholars were likely trying to preserve this history as well.  1400 years is a long time but who knows.  I am almost certain of Leonardo’s association with what I called a buzzard wing because my aunt and uncle used one to dust their store merchandise.  My aunt also kept one at her house.  I think my cousin was also connected to Durer and Ethel Colquhoun.  My great grandfather on my mother’s side is James Mathias Blake.

http://kaysalbrechtdurer.blogspot.com/

 

I altered the background of those on my Durer page.  There is nothing in the images I was trying to hide if that’s what you are getting at, which I am tired of…

My brother was down under JT Gibbs here…

Copy of MOM AND JT

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Welcome to the Harriet Beecher Stowe Center

Welcome to the Harriet Beecher Stowe Center

Little Pussy Willow

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Little Pussy Willow (1870)

Harriet Beecher Stowe - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Barbara Burrus ~ Dorothy Perly?, she had Stowe…

Harriet Beecher Stowe - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

2008 winter…

…Gloria’s mother looks like my father’s people, Lois Gibbs and her daughter…

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“I can keep a secret…”

 

Publius Valerius Publicola – friend of the people…

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Peter Weston was the justice of the peace of Avalon…

Peter (Finlay Currie), who has also been arrested after returning to Rome upon a sign of the Lord, marries the couple; eventually, he is crucified upside-down as an ironic twist at the whim of Nero's guard.

Quo Vadis (1951 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My friend BR found this film ~ o pe pi ~ poppaea ~ popeye…

The crowd, now firmly believing that Nero, and not the Christians, is responsible for the burning of Rome, revolts. Nero flees to his palace, where he strangles Poppaea to death, blaming her for attempting to scapegoat the Christians. Then Acte (Rosalie Crutchley), a palace slave who was once in unrequited love with Nero, appears and offers to aid him in ending his own life before the mob storms the palace. The cowardly Nero cannot bring himself to do it, so Acte drives the dagger into his chest, weeping over his demise.

Quo Vadis (1951 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Carrie ~ Lucretia McEvil…

I have used a liquid version of this product sold to runners for hydration…

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..what I remember most about it was the brain energy I got from it and it also made me sweat more, so does creatine monohydrate…

Alcohol Kay has consumed, asterisk indicates the one’s I liked the most…

…at the time I drank the wine and liquors since 1998, I didn’t know my sister had a restaurant at Myrtle Beach…

A lot of this alcohol consumption came from bars in Wilmington, NC…

I have also consumed Dos Equis, Corona, Blue Ribbon, and Smironoff Malt liquor, Seagram’s Malt liquor, Malt Duck…

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Pittman could be mixed up with Mary Louise Booth ~ Mary Louise Parker ~ I met Parker in the Army, went to Massachusetts…

Meryl looks like the Greek Cleopatra here…

Walker…

Lucretia Mcevil – Blood Sweat and Tears…

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This could be Ms. Perly in Massachusetts who was thrown out of a store…updated

Kay's History II: It is Jane Pittman in Roots I was seeing…

…I said the woman here in Chapel Hill who suffered through that could have the story.  I must have been down under her.   She may be mixed up with my mother and the Blake side of the family. I was in Pitt County when it happened.  I had been in Massachusetts two year before that where I have since located the Perly Street.  This means this event likely happened during the anti-slavery movement or during the period when race relations were not good in Massachusetts.

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A psychological cocktail for sleeplessness…

One evening while viewing the National Geographic video on Sleep Walking, I was struck by the gentleman’s case in which he was charged with the brutal murder of his wife.  My first impression was that his neighbor was involved and might have unknowingly affected the man’s behavior.  I had been reading and learning about projection and projective identification during that time.  As the story unfolded I learned he had difficulties on his job and may have experienced primitive negative thoughts about his boss he could easily have acted out on his wife in a state of sleepwalking.  Maybe he was simply having an affair and wanted to get out of his marriage, but why not get a divorce?   Why not just leave?   Divorcing or leaving are rational ways of dealing with a problem including leaving his job.  Fixing a pool pump in the middle of the night is irrational but on a Saturday afternoon would be quite rational.   Some instruction he must have received in his youth prevented him from walking away from his problems or dealing with them in a rational manner.  On thinking of this matter in the context of my own life, I recently discovered I might be connected to a woman who is from Chapel Hill where I have now relocated.

In 1977, after an evening out at a night club, I had a little more to drink than usual and fell asleep on the sofa.  I was a bed wetter in my childhood and was admonished for it, so I developed repressed memories I expressed as anxiety about falling asleep, the fear of becoming too relaxed to keep from wetting the bed.  As a result, one night after drinking too much, I must have had to go to the bathroom and took a white ceramic ashtray off the coffee table, placed it on the floor and urinated in it.  My roommate awoke early the next morning and found the ashtray in the floor.  When I woke up she pointed it out to me.  I had no recollection of having done the deed but emptied it anyway.  I pondered the matter for several weeks unable to recall what I did.  I was employed at Kmart at the time.  I guess I did it in this manner because during the late 60’s we had to use porcelain pots to go to the bathroom as we lived in a house with no bathroom for several months.  This resolved the mechanics of my actions but not the why of the event.  I recently learned my current neighbor, I knew nothing of at the time, during a time of racial unrest had been stopped from using the public restroom in a local store in Chapel Hill and was asked to leave.  She left the store, got drunk, returned and proceeded to urinate in front of the store.  This is as she recently related her experience to me.  She was subsequently arrested by the police (William Blake, of Orange County, NC, possibly related to my grandmother Eunice Blake) and jailed for one night.  I had been jailed overnight for public intoxication in 1977 as well.  I left a bar after an argument and attempted to walk home which was 10 miles away, the Deputy Sheriff stopped me and I told him I was ok, then the Sheriff arrived and arrested me.  What she told me then alerted me the drama in which we both were involved in 1977.  I had been completely unconscious of the events before they occurred in my waking life which led to my behavior that night.  I had no knowledge of Ms. Perly at anytime.  I fully believed I was acting of my own free will, except for that night due to intoxication.  I figured out before meeting Ms. Perly, I acted out whenever I drank alcohol, likely a psychological thing as I was given paregoric in my youth, so I was what one might say, preprogrammed to act out (other details in my childhood contributed to this behavior).  And since this discovery I have located Perly Street, in a small town in Massachusetts with the same last name as my neighbor.  I was in Medford, Massachusetts briefly in 1975 after being discharged from the US Army and so the story likely goes on further into history, probably pre-Civil War.

Prior to this incident, I was also suffering from severe sleep deprivation and had been without sleep many months before joining the US Army.  It grew into a serious problem since seeing The Exorcist, in 1974 which is what drove me to join.  For 6 months I had less than 4 hours of sleep a night.   The less sleep I got the more angry I did become over not being allowed to sleep for one reason or another.  I felt I had no control over my inability to get adequate sleep and put myself in many risky situations, often unable to resist them.

clip_image002  Perley Ave, Ipswich, MA

Before finding out about Ms. Perly I discovered a Sherlock Holmes film The Woman in Green, a dramatization of a murder involving members of a Mesmer Club where hypnosis was demonstrated to an audience. Sherlock Holmes’ sidekick Dr. Watson denied being able to be hypnotized but it was dramatized he could be, in the film, performing various acts as instructed by the hypnotist.   After viewing this film I was certain it was possible to be hypnotized by the film and I wondered if I had been the victim of my mother having viewed it.  After reflecting on my behavior since 1977, I recollected, upon returning to Tideland Mental Health in 1987 where I had been treated 10 years earlier in 1972-73, I started using self-hypnosis tapes and other types of self hypnosis tapes as a means of altering my behavior.  Either me or my mother possibly had internalized the characters in the Woman in Green and I eventually succumbed to hypnotizing myself.  I did see Stepford Wives.  I think it likely caused me to separate my childhood and other events from the film and I began to act out the film.  Prior to this film I located another noir film, the title I cannot recall (I know I was instructed to forget it) dealing with a similar group of people in which a woman was being forced to take her own life by poisoning herself (I was not instructed to forget that part of the film).  I feel this film also affected my life as I have subjected myself to the use of various dangerous drugs and the excess consumption of alcohol, and often injuring myself physically and otherwise.  I do not deny my personal familial experiences have had a part in that behavior.  I wonder if it caused my mother’s overdose of aspirin in the early 60’s. 

I concluded the film The Woman in Green, did have an affect on both of us because I purchased a green coat from Walmart (still have the receipt) around 2003, several years prior to discovering this film and green isn’t even my favorite color.  I later went back and purchased the same coat in black and gave the green one to my sister, who didn’t need a coat but took it anyway.  I then went to a different store and purchased a tan coat most resembling Holmes’ and one I owned in my youth, when I pretended to be a detective.  Was this the real reason I was in a state of hypnotic sleep, that night, but wide awake physically at other times, possibly acting out the thoughts of the person I was and might still be connected to in Massachusetts and/or in Chapel Hill, NC, I visited in 1972, meaning these thoughts were still quite active in the mind.  

I wrote another article posted here about those experiences in more detail.

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Pittman lived behind the Gibbses in Portsmouth England…

…they may be mixed up with some American Indians ~ Pomieock possibly…

Pomie – ock, eimop ~ mopie…?

I recall now seeing the spirit of the kneeling statue with the kahlua image while I was in Hyde County visiting with my mother.  She had it.  The author of Tinkling Symbol looks like the statue.

I just passed a young woman coming from the Harris Teeter who looked like the author.

Just before waking up I was dreaming or had a vision of a plaque that looked like an African American, I at first thought it was Harriet Beecher Stowe.  Then it seemed I might be in Massachusetts at the door of an office somewhere, a door painted black.  I was little.  Then I recollected a realty office, Maxwell’s Realty in Pennsylvania I found that had a black door.  It would have been the right height.  This was a single door.

It is Jane Pittman in Roots I was seeing…

Monday, May 20, 2013

Important Gloria…

The rights listed in the constitution in no way deny or bar other rights I am entitled to as a US Citizen. I can never be enslaved or forced into involuntary servitude, except as a punishment for a crime I have been justly charged with and legally convicted in a court of law.

I watched a lot of courtroom drama and now they are playing off those dramas, making me the one on trial.  This gives them the upperhand.

A skin cancer on the left side…?

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Gloria Steinem with Special Guest Gayle King– March 21st

 

Ms. Steinem helped to found the Women’s Action Alliance, a pioneering national information center that specialized in nonsexist, multiracial children’s education, and the National Women’s Political Caucus, a group that continues to work to advance the numbers of pro-equality women in elected and appointed office at a national and state level. She also co-founded the Women’s Media Center in 2004. She was president and co-founder of Voters for Choice, a pro-choice political action committee for twenty-five years, then with the Planned Parenthood Action Fund when it merged with VFC for the 2004 elections. She was also co-founder and serves on the board of Choice USA, a national organization that supports young pro-choice leadership and works to preserve comprehensive sex education in schools. She was the founding president of the Ms. Foundation for Women, a national multi-racial, multi-issue fund that supports grassroots projects to empower women and girls, and also a founder of its Take Our Daughters to Work Day, a first national day devoted to girls that has now become an institution here and in other countries.  She was a member of the Beyond Racism Initiative, a three-year effort on the part of activists and experts from South Africa, Brazil and the United States to compare the racial patterns of those three countries and to learn cross-nationally. Now, she is working with the Sophia Smith Collection at Smith College on a project to document the grassroots origins of the U.S. women’s movement.

Gloria Steinem with Special Guest Gayle King– March 21st

Sunday, May 19, 2013

This looks like a fake because the feet are too tense for a deceased person…

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…and there is too much obvious pressure on the toes to keep the legs stiff.

THE ENGLISH WRITER: Dear Audrey, Anais, Daphne, Sylvia & Deanna...

THE ENGLISH WRITER: Dear Audrey, Anais, Daphne, Sylvia & Deanna...

Madame Dimanche ~ belt scene in Dahmer…Lizzie Petersen death…

…used piano wire to sever the horn from her head, then surgically removed the remainder?  Piano wire is steel.

Incoming, “we’ll get you out of it”.  I think these people would be insulted.  I did get some of it cleared up before I got to ECU, then the Hollywood hogs got into it and I lost all track of it.

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Incoming…

“It’s our fault we’re not keeping these damn people cleaned up here.”

Gacy ~ Arsenic and Old Lace…

I did not know about The Sense of the Sixties nor did I have a copy of the book.  I did find it later as mentioned previously. 

I did not come here to clean up.  I came here for an abortion, I was actually acting out someone else’s problem that may also be the result of Love with a Proper Stranger.  She had communicated her story to me.  I was not a writer.  I was homeless at the time.  I left here and came back two years later.  I befriended a man at the shelter.  I left and came back again in 1998 and he took me in and helped me until I got my apartment.  I did not come here to clean up other people’s problems.  If the mental health facility I went to in 1972 had done their job and had communicated to me what was happening to me, I wouldn’t be here in this mess today.  

I think my mother read about John Wayne Gacy in one of her True Crime magazines.  I know I acted some of it out in 1977 at a gay bar, snorting poppers and drinking, I was wearing a gray navy t-shirt and white painters pants on my first visit to the bar.  The film Arsenic and Old Lace came up much later.

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Saturday, October 16, 2004

Arsenic and Old Lace...
Is there a connection between what is portrayed in this movie and Wayne Gacy's crimes? I believe there is.
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Movie the Quick and the Dead...

Kay 1974, re The Nuns, I think the things I was wearing around my wrists were symbolic of the shackles they were made to wear.

**Montefort is also located in Israel and surprisingly my Grandfather was born in Maules Point, Hyde County, NC. I don't exactly remember when the French came to America, but there is a Maules Point just outside Paris.

*I've watched a few of Sharon Stone's movies and I think there are bits and pieces of what happened to the nuns on her movie The Quick and the Dead . I've seen it several times.
Even Sharon, like Emmy Lou on her Pieces of the Sky album cover is wearing a carcan, a shackle about the neck, in one of her pictures on IMDb. This would also explain why I was drawing pictures of birds with huge lumps in their throats...I had more of them but they have somehow disappeared from my black portfolio that was in storage.

My nurse in the Psychiatric Hospital, in 1989, thought the bird was sort of a cad, but now I think it expresses the mutilation some of the nuns experienced. I think alot of this also explains why I ended up homeless and sleeping on the doorstep of a Catholic Church in Raleigh, Our Lady of Lourdes.

Kay F Gibbs

I’ve had this for at least 5 years ~ Tinkling Symbol?

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I told you so…

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Could be a serious problem…

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ADA, 1989…

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My recycle tree, 1976…

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Tinkling Symbol and Strangler in the Swamp…

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Landscapes and Voices by Frans Masereel - Reviews, Discussion, Bookclubs, Lists

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…the snake river I was finding in North America and Iran…it’s a path…