Monday, August 6, 2012
This is the medication I was given and I have only taken 1/2 of a tablet…
…it caused me to stop breathing. I had to stop taking it.
I see…updated
Kay's Film Analysis: The Night Porter Psychological Analysis…
…in thinking about Edward VII, in that he wasn’t breast fed, it is now clear to me he was trapped. Having a wet nurse was to resolve the negative issues male children face in their rearing only in the case of a wet nurse their lives hang in the balance and to destroy the nurse would be, as Fairbairn states, tantamount to psychological suicide, no matter how much she may abuse him (not saying that is the case) in someway or that he may even think she abused him.
It’s clear to me he likely was the one who shot at Queen Victoria. I think he sought out these other women to replace his mother’s love. Of course this has not been my purpose in learning this material but to understand my own behavior, of course, it is easy to see how the use of another would aid in the separation of the wet nurse from the child and create some psychic bonding between the biological mother and child. For this to happen one’s mother would have to be prevented from breast feeding their child.
Deaf people must have it really tough having to communicate via the mind rather than talking…
…these conversations are driving me crazy.
Why is this so?
The children of survivors show symptoms which would be expected if they actually lived through the Holocaust” [8].
Because they communicate their stories to their children. There will never be a reconciliation or any peace this way because they will raise their children to think they have been victimized rather than teaching them their behavior has created the problem. This I see in my own problems and our belief in the Bible, the cause of some of the erroneous thinking and thus the abuses and mentality which has been inflicted on me, my parents and their parents, was done in the name of God, and religion. There have been those who have capitalized on this sick outdated mode of thinking.
Yes Letter from Hell is one…
…someone tried to get me to watch the one based on James Maybrick’s diary but I chose Letter from Hell.
Saturday, August 4, 2012
I had an awful experience yesterday morning…
…I was sleeping an suddenly I thought I was convulsing then I thought my bed was shaking, then I thought someone had been murdered, suffocated or something.
I felt their legs shaking and I had this eerie feeling. I still can’t tell what’s happened.
Incoming…updated
Kay just won 10 million dollars.
“Pay my people”. “I’m trying to keep them beholden to us’.
Excuse me, you’ve been paid to the tune of $4 billion dollars a year. Now, I don’t know what your bosses are doing with the money but you have gotten all you are getting my me.
Switcheroo game and the Camera Obscura…
Of course you have to beware of the game Switcheroo, in which one has something of value another might want and the other will seek to make one think the other actually possesses these things, causing one to project them away from the self. These people live in a world of only their own existence and everything else is an object to be manipulated at their will. This of course is an infantile state of development but many people never outgrow this state to see others as human or capable of feeling pain, they lack empathy. I recall my brother biting my sister. My mother witnessed the event and then bit my brother. He didn't do it anymore. He learned what he did hurt and caused pain. so often others must feel pain in order to know others experience it too. I've noticed types of music are used in this way. Sometimes inflicting pain can tip the scales too far in the opposite direction.
Clearly these hacking and destroying information attempts were the same reasons…
…the Jews destroyed the library at Alexandria. Obscuring information.
This man was enmeshed with my people…
Joseph Gibbs - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…this man clearly looks like Elizabeth Bowes Lyons.
Someone hacked my pass…
…they took If Someone Had Known off my Films blog.
They claim I gave it to them, this is a deceptive view of what is happening. I consciously gave them nothing. They stole it and illegally accessed my blog.
No one have no permission to access Kay Gibbs’ blogs for any reason at any time.
Kay has no desire for any of these musicians…
…she has no musical skills nor instruments and has no desire to indulge in them. She hardly listens to it any longer and has never been enthused over it. These were projections and transferences onto her not from her own self.
Just a few minutes ago I was viewing Dancing with the Stars, unfortunately you can’t view dancing without music.
I think we are the “hoppers” and the Popperina (named for a soda pop joint) became a place where they danced like a “juke joint”
It’s a ritual like with most primitive peoples.
This is who my Aunt was possessed of and my Aunt Mamie had the other half…updated
Frederick Benteen - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
but she still called her sissie…Sissie Gibbs is likely working on this. He looks like Vesalius or they’ve made an error.
This was in my father’s mind, never seen it nor heard of it ~ The Sorcerer’s Stone ~ the wizard in The Wizard of Oz…
…among the many things they failed to show here in this film was the typewriter. Of course the implications are that sound and headphones will alter one’s perceptions and put one in a hypnotic state.
Someone must have been thinking faster, faster, faster in this film possibly causing my cousin to wreck his truck ending in his death.
Photo is from an index print not a negative.
Friday, August 3, 2012
I meant Nadir the photographer but in reference to this definition it would be that which is below…
Nadir - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…meaning me, as I become possessed of my father’s baggage after his death.
Now I know where those Iranians came from and who sent them…
Tehrangeles - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
…and the two bit dealership that ripped me off of my mustang was a set-up to gyp me out of my car. Like I don’t have some right to drive a mustang. I was born here and my people have lived here longer than a big chunk of this population and I don’t know what they see in this country but it isn’t a shit hole for their dirty laundry.
This is what I discovered in this camera…
In the optical lectures many problems connected with the reflexion and refraction of light are treated with ingenuity. The geometrical focus of a point seen by reflexion or refraction is defined; and it is explained that the image of an object is the locus of the geometrical foci of every point on it. Barrow also worked out a few of the easier properties of thin lenses, and considerably simplified the Cartesian explanation of the rainbow.
I searched my yearbooks for an image of Mr. Barrow, I thought he was a teacher in my high school…
Isaac Barrow (English mathematician) -- Britannica Online Encyclopedia
…I was sure he was, I saw him. He might be in my sister’s 1975 yearbook.
Thursday, August 2, 2012
I first heard it while viewing one of Truffaut’s films, Masculin, Feminin…
What's In Kay's Mind 2: Re: Camera Obscura…
This was before discovering the Camera Obscura image…of course we do have the Octagon House in Hyde County which is a derivation of it.
Re: Camera Obscura…
…I was watching a short film, one I had found in this history, and discovered these sentiments, “what did you go in there for”…”you know what I told you about those people”.
This then led me to discover the Putnam’s Photography page.
This was not intended, I made an error in putting the [sic] there…
lossed [sic]
…someone told me to put that there but it was not intended to be spelled that way I was about to correct it.
I think Ms. Anderson had been a patient at Dorothea Dix Mental Hospital where Nancy Christenson worked…update 3
…another acquaintance. She was apparently criminally insane and I re-enacted a huge piece of her history. It seems possible she was also a patron of HH Holmes’ sinister hotel in Illinois at some point.
Her demeanor was that of a guilty person who was trying to escape her crime and was living with a woman at the time of our acquaintance. She was a hypochondriac, sullen and clearly a very tired person with dark circles around her eyes. Her skin was pale as if she had not seen the sun in many years much as my own self, in the past decade. Clearly she had been incarcerated for at least that long as I can tell.
When I was recollecting my great grandmother Addie (Adelaide) and great grandfather William, it became clearer to me my great grandmother Addie might have been mixed up with an ice skater (Ice Castles, film) during the Little Ice Age, in Britain. Maybe she was momentarily blinded by the manifestation of some bright light while skating which caused her to fall and strike her head, becoming unconscious. I had tried ice skating in college but landed on my fanny too many times so I gave it up. This is when I met Bill (William) he looked like the longbeards or Langobards ~ Lombards. He must have joined the Army during some war (Civil War?), so this would be how I came to be in it.
During this time I had sensed someone burying their child. I thought it was my grandmother and grandfather as they lost their first child, it was stillborn. They were called Willie and Addie Gibbs. I later discovered Ella White (Addie’s mother was a White), listed as a mental patient at Cherry Hospital where I had also been on three different occasions. One patient had lossed [sic] blood all over my bed. I now suspect there was something sinister going on with that.
After getting out of prison, I saw Snow White Night of Terror in which there were scenes of this. I took some valium during that time.
This led me to think (not a reader of history just going by my experiences) some of the people who came from the North to fight in the war had been prisoners. Landing at Camelot where a window in the wall to the kitchen put me onto the Millbank Prison.
This Anderson piece of my history had been forgotten by me because of all of the traumas I endured since meeting her, I was still under a hypnotic spell I think due to my mother’s television viewing and being rendered unconscious by the history itself, it would be like trying to swim the English Channel with blinders on.
Laura Dimmoc? ~ Laura Louise Warner ~ mother, Susan Anderson ~ Susan Anderson page 56 ~ Donna Anderson…
Sleeping with the Enemy (1991) - IMDb
…I met her in 1984 or so, before Wade’s confession…I encountered her spirit in jail through a prisoner who claimed she was Donna Anderson. She claimed to have shot her boyfriend or husband in the arm with a pistol and buried it in the back yard of the trailer. I encountered another woman while in prison who claimed to have killed her baby. I think it was Ms. Anderson. Was this person connected to the London Asylum, Millbank or Hollaway Prison?
I first met Ms. Anderson in ‘84 via Bumgardner. It had been ten years since I had been in the Army.
Mary Wade, page 162, might have known Laura Louise Warner
Julia Ann Boomer ~ Robert Williams child Dallas Williams married Florida Jennette – Good Times…
Eunice Lumsden Mann pages 112 and 186…correction
Clan Lumsden - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Her husband’s mother was Laura Dimmoc Weston…
I know an older woman who had her TV suspended from the ceiling at Kings Arms apartments…
like these in motels, she is likely deceased now.
Was this a chance meeting between Scarborough and Kelly…
What's In Kay's Mind 2: Susan Dimmock Scarborough…
…who was studying the art Queen Victoria or Mary Jane Kelly?
It’s clearer to me now Mr. Merrick’s mother was afflicted with the visual content of the minds of some upper class people and likely some of the medical profession. Some Doctor, maybe Percival Potts, used the services of an artist to illustrate his medical discoveries as would likely many other medical professionals. I do have to work at sketching although there are times when I come out with a fine product and I had once considered medical illustration as a profession.
Are they they (somethings skipping, a record or CD or someone’s repeating themselves) dissociated parts of Leonardo himself?